So on Monday I went into the studio to record my lead vocals. I had been really looking forward to this part of the recording – as I had been itching to get those headphones on and to sing into the rather beautiful microphone that Crown Lane Studio have! However in the week running up to it I started struggling with swollen glands, fuzzy ears, painful chest – you get the picture. I started to panic knowing that I had the lead vocals to do but knowing that I was physically limited. You know what it’s like when you have a cold/virus – it can wipe out your voice for a good few weeks.
But then I remembered the verse in Philippians 4:13 that says, ‘I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me’. A friend also sent me a message saying not to worry, but to remember who I was doing this for. Then it hit me… it didn’t matter that I was weak and struggling, as I didn’t have to do it in my strength but in His. God had this under control and that I just had to trust him completely.
Now I will be totally honest, this has been a big lesson for me in totally trusting Jesus/God for something. How easy is it to say we trust in him when everything is going well, when we are healthy, when we have enough and we can seem to get through the days in our own strength. But how hard is it to trust when we can’t see the outcome, when we are in desperate need and can’t do it in our own strength. There can be that fear of the unknown, of taking that leap of faith. When my voice is strong and healthy and I can practice lots it’s easy to feel like I am trusting in what God is doing. But this week really challenged me. As the recording got nearer and I didn’t seem to be improving and it was easy to give way to panic. However, I kept hearing His still small voice telling me to trust him. So on Monday I walked into the recording studio knowing that I was physically weak and that the only way I could sing the way I needed to was through the strength and blessing of God. It was a real blessing to have my wonderful friend Sarah there who prayed for and encouraged me throughout the day. Before each song I just asked that God would give me strength to sing and bring praises to his name. It was a really humbling experience because God gave me the strength to do every vocal with the full strength and full range. I knew that I was doing this in his strength alone. I had taken that leap of faith and jumped straight into his open arms.
Through this whole process I have felt my levels of trusting in God have been pushed and stretched and that He is teaching me not to rely on and trust in my strength, but in His and His alone.
It seems to be a continuous journey! On Saturday I have the ‘Evening with Kat Mills’ and right now I am lying on the sofa dosed up on paracetamol and feeling pretty hideous. But I know and will stand on the truth that In God’s strength I can do all things.
I want to encourage you… yes, completely trusting in God and for God’s provision can be scary and really hard, but is totally worth it. How amazing is it that we don’t have to do any of this alone, or in our own strength but that we have a God who loves us so much that he sent His Son to die and rise again for us. We have a God who cares, who is strong and who says to us ‘Come to Me all who are weary and heavy-laden and I will give you rest.”, and “Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls’
So take that leap of faith, totally trusting in him and jump into his open arms,